Tuesday, March 29, 2011

Nothing endures but change...

It's interesting how no matter how much time you spend planning or plotting...things change. That's one consistent element of life. Change happens. It can be good. It can be bad. It can be exciting, scary, overwhelming, sad, thrilling, or simply different. We've had some slightly scary, yet exciting changes these past few months. For example, we bought a house!... and then I got laid off work.

On February 27th, we purchased our home. We've been renting this house for 3 years and found out it was going to be sold as a "short sale" which allowed us to purchase the home for a ridiculously low price. We know we like the location (4 doors down from the school that Jayda will attend next year!!!), we love our neighbors, and we know what we're getting since we've lived here for three years. The real bonus (besides the price)...we didn't have to move! We truly feel blessed for this opportunity. We now own a home that we can call our own. Although the house is not our dream home, it's perfect for us at this stage in our life. It's pretty, safe, affordable, and we love it! It's funny how when we were renting I didn't really like the house. I thought it was too small, the floors creaked, etc, etc. But now that it's ours I truly love it! I'm having fun planning how to redecorate and organize now that it's ours. Russ has already redone our closets (he did a great job) and is excited to become Mr. Handy! We're super excited!

The day after we bought the house our dryer broke. And our toilet is leaking. Weird that now those issues are our problems. No more calling the landlord. No more having it fixed for free. Those times are over. It's our responsibly now. And ya know what? It actually feels really, really good!

The day after our dryer broke, and two days after buying our house... I got laid off of work.


Then Russ and the girls all got the flu. It lasted for 10 days.

Needless to say...it was a crazy couple of weeks!

Although getting laid off of work right after buying a house was a bit scary and overwhelming...we feel blessed it happened. I've wanted to be a "real" stay-at-home mom for years. I say "real" because I was a stay-at-home mom, but I was working from home which means I was spread too thin and not really doing anything as well as I'd like. We were all suffering.

This forced our little family to make some changes. Russ is now providing for us on his own and I am able to truly run the household and manage our family. Interestingly enough...I've never been happier! I'm able to manage the house (it's still messy in case you were wondering), do the laundry (although we still dry clean Russ' work shirts because I think ironing clothes is the worst thing ever), cook meals (which I'm actually enjoying now that I'm not taking work calls and trying to keep the kids quiet while rushing out the door to pick up Russ from the bus WHILE trying not to burn the garlic bread!)! It's been soooooo amazing to feel like I have 10 minutes to read a book to Jayda instead of running around sending emails or taking calls while shushing my kids. It feels great to be able to read my kindle at night instead of working on RFP's or policies. It feels sooooooooo good to not be constantly hooked up to my blackberry. I do miss the sense of pride having a fancy title at a cool company gave me. But I am finding much more happiness and much more pride being an effective wife and mother. Being laid off was sad and scary. But being able to focus on my family and realign my priorities is a gift. We're thankful for the opportunity.

Staff Pro was a blessing sent from above. I truly believe that. I was able to work from home for nearly 6 years. I helped put Russ through grad school. I helped save enough money to buy a home. Although it was hard as hell, I was able to be at home with my kids and snuggle then any time of the day. I was able to fly home and see our families because Staff Pro would pay to fly me out for work. Staff Pro, and it's staff, played a HUGE role in my life over the past 8.5 years. I've made some great friends and had some great experiences. I'm so blessed to know them and to have been part of that company. I owe so much to my uncle Cory for providing me the opportunity to work at Staff Pro and be a mother and an executive! I can NEVER repay sweet Suzanne who was my boss and is now one of my closest friends for what she did for me day in and day out. I survived and thrived because of her leadership and friendship. I will always cherish Adi for putting up with my crazy ways and helping keep me on track. We made a good team. I'll miss my Staff Pro family. I'll miss the experiences I had while working. I'll miss Staff Pro.

But change is good. I'm happy. My kids are happier. Russ is happier. Life is just plain better.

Weird how a scary change can turn into such a happy blessing.


Stephie said...

Wow, talk about baptism by fire! Welcome to home-ownership! I'm sorry to hear you lost one of your jobs--but it sounds like you're enjoying the other one (motherhood) even more now. Love your way of describing everything--best of luck with the redecorating. When you're done can you come help me? We've been here going on two years and I still only have a handful of pictures up. I'm pretty much hopeless in that department! :)

Angie said...

Congrats!!! You've wanted this so long and frankly you earned it. You're a great mom and with more time you'll be even more amazing!